An Elegant Nerd

Today just one day which unfortunately I was getting sick, when I started to wake up, I have a bad feeling that i could not reach anything in my surround. Looks like I don't have a strength to do something easy and it makes me feel hurt. Life must go on whether my condition could not support to realize that I am under sick situation.

I began to wake up at 9 AM and i did not do something I was doing regularly. Yes surely I got influenza. At this time I should take a breakfast to eat a slice of bread, but my power should be raised first to make a change to do. But why did I do if I just can not have a seat at this moment, I just got feeling that i should take care my body first.

I do have a sleep for a while till 1.30 PM and I think that I do not take a lunch I will become more sick. Pretty sure I take a bath first before I take a lunch. Feel so creepy when I take a bath with powerless situation. My head such bombed and in the distraction disease. I do know that my body destroys my desire to have a lunch, ya you know what should I do.Lunch, I was become uncontrolled to walk away from my boarding house and I thought that I need some hot spicy noodles. I walk nearby in a rainy day with unable to be controlled body. My foots and legs are paralyzed, and hard to move on. But fortunately I arrived in a Warkop to get my desire, not only desire, this is talking about human necessary. Spicy and hot noodles make me feel better even though I don't taste anything except spicy. I reserved double noodle and Hot orange beverage. Fuck yeaahh my tongue senses a flames around.

But the main idea of I write this diary when I would go to office at 3 PM and everyday I go to my office by bus. My condition still senses paralyzed, I was waiting for a moment to get a bus, finally i entered to the bus with headcache condition. In my journey as a usual that traffic jam is always paralyzing jakarta's vehicle condition. At the moment there is a one person who enter the bus also. And my perspective answered that the man is street child person. Yes my feeling is true. Firstly I look at him, there is no special person character. But when he come to sing, Woooww awesome golden voice I think.Yes I am who was in a bad conditions. He sings Soledad and Take me down entitle. I see in my around, I feel it and I want to cry. haha. I remember with someone who has come to make me feel happily in my life. I miss her so and just time which can answer my pray. In my bad body condition it makes me worse to have some feeling in my mind. The golden voices combined a great song and the situation affirmative to makes me feel so Galau. Yaah why did I say like that if the real condition as dramatic as Indonesian "undefined" movie. haha. Sinetron I mean.

The main idea here why Indonesian government never support talented and awesome street child person. Why did the government do not give a great places to all of street child performer to show they great talent. Is that government never think that many people outside there have a great performer which can make under urban person get a suitable income? Is it fair that great performer just being street child performer if they have a great talent to be improved and to be shown?

I think government provides in a part of their city and provides the facility in the open area to collect many street child performer till they are have a great places to improved their skills.

But mini garden in Jakarta does not exist, how can government provide all of them?

Yah maybe under pleasure person just do cry to realize that they are being careless stakeholder from government.

Maybe government should take an improvement in any sides. Caring to all of their citizen is the best way to have a great city to care.

Hopefully, just hope was coming, no action and no changes.

Sense the human being and adore all of the created World makes the people take a gratitude much. Even we can touch the real thing which have a texture such a soil. Aggregation of soil shows the most beautiful thing ever. Land, mountain are the proof the creation from our almighty. The world gives us everything as our desire whether we can take it in a good way or we crush something good for egoistic matter.
So impressive when we take a look in the detail particular of little thing, we will never realize that we are already close to something weird in this life.

This is one imagination I myself often get it when I was daydreaming in a moment. I imagine that World is nothing. The contents of world are empty. The Creator of the world is never coming. Once more time I say that I talk about World, not about Earth. How does World do? What are we? What is really happen in the emptiness?

Yes, Emptiness. The most frightening moment when I remember and Emptiness was around on my mind.
Like we wanna have a suicide without any burden.
What does we do?

Ohh my, this really makes me facedown and go down to tell it. Not only to tell it, I really shock when I was get it. Like when I was writing down this article.
Have you ever imagine that you're nothing? Have you ever daydream if your surrounds are empty?

I do not know, I really do not know what i want to tell you more.

Maybe,maybe,maybe....
Maybe emptiness will be happen when we have died. Maybe the world will be ending their story when we were died.

No no no no....

I don't know what will happen if we don't have a God.
Maybe World just become word for the soul who able know about World word.